So I was working on a new song, because the mood struck me and I was actually able to get some ideas out.  I recorded a verse and chorus for a song I've been playing with for a while.  It's called "Born with a Broken Heart" and it's about as depressing as it sounds.  Here's the lyrics thus far:

Stuck in the mud
Listening to myself disintegrate
In the face of silent winds
My molecules, they dissipate
And now I disconnect
In retrospect, less than fair
That I was born with a broken heart
The kind that can't be repaired

Am I real at all
Or will I one day fade away?
When I'm gone for good
I wonder what they'll say
Was he real at all?
And did he one day fade away
Now that he's dead and gone
What are we supposed to say?

It's based around a couple of samples (naturally).  There's a Postal Service sample and one from Morrissey as well.  Also, it opens with a spoken sample from Star Trek that I thought was interestingly appropriate.

I'm quite excited about this one, as I think it's some of my better writing so far.  All I need is another couple of verses, maybe a bridge of some sort, and it'll be ready to put online.  When it's up, I'll let everyone know.  Well, those that actually care, I suppose. :P

The idea for the track came when I was in the midst of a major depressive spell a couple weeks ago.  Now that I've snapped out of it, I'm actually able to work with it.

So what's it all about, V?  What does it mean?

Well, kids, it's basically about how I've come to the realization that I'm one of those people who is not meant to find true love.  I'm not talking familial or platonic love, but romantic.  Basically, I've come to the conclusion that the right person, though they may be out there somewhere, is nowhere near me.  They're not even part of my universe at the moment, and they likely never will be.  It sounds awful, but I assure you it isn't.  Coming to terms with that is proving to be a difficult but rewarding experience.  See, I think there are people like myself in the world, and there always have been.  We cannot find love because we were meant for something bigger.  Yeah, I do somewhat believe in the concept of destiny, and I think I'm meant to do something important for the world.  The only path to eternal life is being remembered by others, see.  That's what I believe, and that's how I've decided to live my life.

So, really, the song isn't all that depressing I suppose.

Forgive my pretentious blathering, kids.  V is tired, and when he's tired, he blathers pretentiously.  I love you all.  Someday, maybe you'll all love me too.

Jesus was a horse thief.

V